I guess the title says it all.
I can think wonderful things about both of them. See through any shortcomings and support and love them 10000000%
I can’t seem to do that for myself. I go back and forth on my own body; I love it for what it has done and can do yet I look in the mirror at stretch marks and fat and wince. I should love it like I love them. I love every inch of Adventure Dad’ body, the strong muscly (is that a word?) parts and the “fat” spots. I love Papaya when she eats, I love eating but dislike the results of eating. My body makes milk, I sometimes call it my “superpower,” but I wish I had smaller more cute boobies. And I do remember when they got big in pregnancy and I was so excited.
So, I’m of many minds. Is that the nice way of saying crazy?
I think I may be a product of the consumer culture. I want to enjoy being myself, yet I feel guilty that my clothing size is in the double digits. I’m an “average” sized woman, yet I wish I could have the thighs and stomach of a preTeen. Huh? I know it is crazy but I can’t seem to use logic to turn off my own on/off self loathing.
In better news, I’m in search of the perfect stuffed animal for Papaya. I loved a Triceratops as a child, I’m thinking that or a Gund Bear for Papaya. Apparently this is an age where they connect to a “lovey” so I should be choosing her toys carefully.
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Okay, all that cute stuff you get in eMail forewards is true.
One of those days... by Papaya Mom on November 10th, 2006
Adventure Dad, my beloved and most perfect husband, let me stay up late last night alone and sleep in this morning.
I made "my" Bolognese sauce tonight by Papaya Mom on August 17th, 2005
and it was a hit! Even Jake, who likes jarred Ragu sauce, liked it better! No one was able to guess the "secret" ingredient.
Tattoo Girl by Papaya Mom on July 23rd, 2006
We had a lot of fun with temporary tattoos today.
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You are stuck in the same circular rut that most women get caught in. I had my “fat” period as a 16 yr. old and have forever since mentally pictured myself as fat. It was an obsession my Dad had — that his daughters not be fat. (His mother died young of complications due to obesity, I think.) So the years when I was not fat — 20 to 48 — I never appreciated the body I had. Then menopause happened and the fat period returned. There is no way to change what we picture in our mind. I know that you are exercising and I am trying to exercise, and I am hoping that will help both of us feel more physically fit. But I don’t know that exercise will take off any pounds. At this point, I can be happy with physically fit. In my experience, if you keep up the healthy lifestyle, you will slowly trim down as Maya speeds up. Her demand on your time and energy will force you to keep up. And keeping up is great exercise! Love you and look forward to seeing you soon, Mom
Mom. You always say the most wonderful things. I hope I know what to say to Maya someday….Papaya Mom